I’ve dealt with my fair share of guilt- from food guilt, exercise guilt and just the typical guilt you experience throughout daily experiences and events. Guilt is not necessarily a bad thing, I mean it can persuade someone to make a better choice or could motivate you to move about a bit more often. However, it is something that should seen infrequently in small doses. If you’re someone who has dealt with an eating disorder or eating disorder tendencies then you probably know guilt a little bit better than most.
It’s my guilt, or actually lack of guilt, that I wanted to discuss today.
See, if you were to rewind the clock a year or even a few months ago I wouldn’t be where I am now. It’s obvious I’ve made progress (yes, I’m tooting my own horn here) and even if I still go through those bumps in the road I am very proud of where I am and what I’ve done.
During the Christmas and New Year period gyms start to close, group fitness classes cancel and people start to go away, visit family and vacation. This means getting workouts in can be pretty difficult, as well as it sometimes being darn right inconvenient and not necessary to be honest.
I went away to visit the in laws and spend time at Port Macquarie which means my usual high intensity, exercise packed life was reduced to relaxing walks and incidental exercise.
I am actually shocked at how well I dealt with it. There were no tears, no guilt and no dampen on my Christmas break because I wasn’t working out. Exercising is definitely one of those avoidance behaviours for me, and by me being okay to not exercise- well it says a lot.
In the past my life was scheduled around my gym and workouts. And in all honesty it probably still is. I guess that’s because it’s something I truly value in life and I make sure to always have time for it. But the degree to which it controls my life, well that’s definitely changed.
It no longer controls my life, well atleast not like it use to. I control my life and exercise is something I choose to do. However, it’s also something that I can choose not to do if things come up and life happens- because it’s inevitable that things like this will occur.
I guess this is just another perk of recovery- a happy, guilt-free life.
Do (or did) you get exercise guilt?