So many of you would know that I’ve been going through a few issues. ED (bingeing, restriction and nasty stuff), anxiety, depression and everything in between. It’s silly to separate them because really they all influence each other and it’s more like a big web opposed to separate little labels (plus I don’t like labeling it per se, it’s just easier to do that when writing about it)
A while back I was going through a really, truly tough time. Some of the posts during that time were pretty down and probably weren’t the biggest happiness boosters, right? Ha. But I don’t blog to lie, I blog to share my life with you and that’s what was going on at that time. If you want to read them for interest sake, to get up to scratch or for personal reasons (want to know me, relate to it, help your own experience) then I’ll post a couple here:
I’ve basically shared with you my entire experience in recovery (thus far, still going) and I love that I feel comfortable enough to do that with you. And even if you don’t comment, I know you’re there 🙂 These include (not in order):
- Starting to take St Johns Wort three times a day with meals.
- For the first time beating a binge!
- Feeling anxious
- Seeing a dietician and psychologist
- Getting amazing anxiety techniques to help manage my anxiety
- Exposing myself to anxiety through Exposure Therapy
- Justifying my eating
- Getting rid of restriction
- Progressing through different stages of bingeing
There’s heaps more but those are just some that I distinctively remember (I am a link-aholic I’m sorry). Anyways, I thought it was about time that I updated you with how I am- and hopefully to replace that old Where I Am post with a more positive and happier Where I am Now post.
Well where am I? I am in a great place. I am frequently feeling happy, enjoying life and beating these plagues one itty bitty step at a time. I don’t know if it’s the St Johns, the therapist, the daily healthy thoughts thanks to Healthy Thoughts Healthy actions or my own inner strength/core self, but whatever it is I’ll keep it. I definitely know that I wouldn’t be where I am with without the blog and you guys- my readers. If you follow the blog, love it, share it, occasionally visit or this is your first time and you probably won’t return- I am truly thankful. To be able to type exactly what I’m thinking (with very little censor or structure mind you) has been amazing therapy in itself. I also feel I’ve developed a little extra strength knowing someone out there may really understand and need to know things will get better, just as they get worse.
I am truly happy with myself, my body, my life, my partner and my situation. Now, I didn’t say I am always happy with it- oh no, don’t think that’s the case… But I do feel that happiness, and it feels good.
DAILY HEALTHY THOUGHT: Being truly happy makes being sad worth it.
What’s made you happy today or this past week? What’s your daily healthy thought?