heard READ correctly- I BEAT THE BINGE! Not necessarily forever, but for now- for today :) Let me give you the lowdown. I arrived at work to see two giant containers of cookies (anzac and triple choc for those interested). Look at them, aren’t they just screaming ‘Eat me’.
Well what I actually heard was: binge on me, overeat me, you’re stressed have a cookie or 536. I had a feeling it wasn’t genuine craving and was instead an emotional craving. Instead of bingeing on a trigger food I decided to eat a multigrain cracker to give myself something to munch on and to see if it was genuine hunger. Well it wasn’t as I didn’t end up having lunch for a while after that.
Here is what I did: I acknowledged that I was feeling stressed, overwhelmed and anxious about my all my uni work and study I have going on at the moment. But I was not going to let another binge take over me. I held it together, occupied myself elsewhere and took deep breathes to re-balance myself. And 7 hours later I am still binge free. I don’t want to be too pre-mature here (although this would defs help me stay accountable) but I believe have just overcome and stopped head on for the first time a binge before it happens. And I am really proud of myself :) I feel empowered that I can do it. And now I’ll know for later that it’s possible (note to self: bookmark this post? haha) and I am capable of beating it when it strikes!
But before all that drama, I did a fitbox and body balance at the gym :) Maybe it was that relaxation at the end of body balance that gave me the strength to prevent a binge? Whatever it was- I need to get more of it!
On another note, I need your help dear readers, since I value your opinion so highly. As you know I did the 10km Bridge to Brisbane run last year and just this weekend did the 5km Brisbane Running Festival run, BUT fast approaching is this year’s Bridge to Brisbane. The bf said he’d do it with me (yay) but we are unsure whether to do the 5km or 10km. Personally, I am worried that I will let myself down and do worse than last year or not be able to run the whole time like last year too. I am scared of the challenge and the possible disappointment of me failing- talk about no self-confidence right? But as I type this I realise that may be the exact reason that I SHOULD do it. To challenge myself and to show myself I am capable of things, and of amazing things thank you very much! (yes i consider running 10km straight amazing ok). Another factor I need to consider is cost- the 5km is $30 entry and 10km $36 ($6 for an extra 5km ain’t half bad). Also, the 10km starts at the ridiculous time of 6:10am, whereas the 5km starts at a more rational time of 9:40am. Then I also have to consider the bf. I know he is able to finish the 10km but I guess I feel sort of guilty in asking him to do the 10km, when he already doesn’t want to run anyways (and is only doing it for me) and would feel much more comfortable and at ease doing the 5km.
So, weighing up all those factors what do you think?
I was tempted to add a third answer of ‘how about you run to an ice cream store’- but thought you’d all be cheeky and choose that leaving me with no actual help on the matter hahah… but then again I would have ice cream…
How did you recently overcome a difficulty/struggle in your life?